September 30, 2003
I was chatting in the ship of fools cafe after work tonight and the conversation got onto phobias. I said mine was ‘pudding on a plate’ which isnt really a phobia more of a pet peeve, but alas i shared it anyway. I suspect your wondering what im going on about. Basically if i get a piece of cake with no cream or custard etc on a plate, then that is fine and i will happily eat it, but the problem comes when they add the cream or custard. you wouldnt dream of putting soup on a plate for someone to eat, so why do we put a pudding liquid on a plate????????
It totally baffles me, it really does. The main reason it peeves me is because you cant get any ’scupage’ when its on a plate, as the cream is never deep enough to get any of it onto the spoon, so you end up having to leave most of it, as you cant get to it. Anyway enough of my pudding problems 
Im still waiting to hear if i have got a interview. On the church website it said that the closing date was on the 22nd of september but on the youthwork website it said it was the 30th. So either it was the 22nd and i havnt heard anything as i havnt got a interview or it actually is the 30th and then in that case the closing date is tomorrow. I really hope i find out soon, either way, as i need to sort the time off from work etc. I so dont want to build myself up for a huge fall in not getting this job, but the more i think and pray about it, the more it is something i really feel i want to do. Just the thought of really getting involved within a community and working alongside the church and the young people in a area really gets me excited. Its something i have wanted to be doing again for a long time. I really hope i get the opportunity to do it. whether its at the church ive applied at, or another church somewhere in the country.
holly xxx
September 29, 2003
Its really wierd, it was only the other day that i was thinking about the people who i went to school with, and what they are doing with their lives now. I left school 13 years ago and although i see alot of them to say hello to, i have only really kept in touch with a few of them. The ones i keep in touch with, i have known since i was about 8, so ive known them now for about 20 years. I found out some sad news this evening. Mom was reading the paper and i happened to notice a headline about a local skateboarder. It seemed like an interesting article as we have a skatepark opposite work. So i was wondering if it was about one of the kids who come into the shop. Anyway after a couple of hours i went back in the lounge and thought i would have a quick read of the paper and look at the article. It was about a local lad who had fell on his head while on his skateboard and after three days in hospital, he had died. I then noticed the name and it was a lad who was in my class when i was in primary school. I hadnt really kept in touch with him, as he ended up going to the local boys grammer school at the age of 11, so i think i had only seen him a couple of times since then. I couldnt believe it. He was married, not sure if he had any kids, but still it must be so hard for his wife, parents and the people who still knew him. It seems strange that at 28 someone i went to school with is now dead. I know it seems a naive thing to say, but you hear about these kind of things all the time, but you dont expect it to happen to anyone you know. It was only a couple of years ago that another girl who was in my class, her husband of two years died, whilst he was on his motorbike on his way home from work. She is now bringing up their young son who is under five, on her own. It makes you realise that you have to live each day to the full as you never know what is round the corner.
holly xxx
September 26, 2003
As i said the other day i had managed to get tuesday off. So i went with dad to the hospital to visit mom. I got a bit lost at first as dad had said he would meet me in there as he had to sort out the parking. He had said mom was in the same ward as before so off i went, only to find she wasnt in there. So i went next door as she had also been in there, but again she wasnt. Fortunatly one of the nurses looked on the computer and found out she was actually downstairs on another ward, where i went to find my mom in bed and my dad wondering where i had been. He then clicked that i hadnt been with him the day before when she was admitted so when he had said same ward, he meant that one. Doh.
oh well. Mom seemed in good spirits and was even trying to fix me up with the son of the patient in the next bed ha ha ha.
On the way home we popped into sainsburies to buy something for tea. I ended up buying some chicken and salad. Ive been eating so much stodgy food lately i needed something light, and that was perfect.
Wednesday mom was allowed home and told to rest. I was due to meet up with my old housemate for tea that evening but i cancelled it as dad had a cricket meeting he couldnt get out of, and i didnt want mom to be home alone. So all i had to do that day was pop to the bank as it was pay day. I also popped into the local supermarket and managed to get a bit of a bargain. 15 bottles of Bud for only £15 plus it came with a Bud cool box. Its sad i know, but such a bargain. Plus i brought some more salad for tea
Today i was meant to be meeting up with one of my vicars for coffee at 10.30 but i cancelled as i didnt get to bed until really late, plus i wanted to talk to her about the job ive applied for, but i havnt heard anything from them yet. so seemed pointless talking about something i may not even get an interview for. I said i will let her know my days off for next week as i should know by then. I have been looking at laterooms.com for hotels incase i do get an interview, as i will have to travel to London for it. so i will either get there the day before, so im already in the area or stay over that night of the interview, so i dont have to worry about how long it will take and worry about missing my train. I really hope i get it, as ive wanted to live in London for as long as i can remember and the fact it comes with accomodation is a big plus. Still if its not right i will keep looking. I havnt just been looking in London, I have basically looked at the job first and then seen where it is. So i could end up in scotland, who knows?
holly xxx
September 22, 2003
Yesturday at church, we had an amazing sermon that really spoke to me. Its about doing things joyfully and not moaning about them, but just getting on with it. That doesnt mean that you cant speak up about things that are wrong, but the endless moaning and winging about the little things are not good. I feel like i have been doing that so much recently. Yes ive had a crap year so far and things havnt been going right, but i need to focus my thoughts on God more and to talk to him and pray when things are rough. Cause lets face it im not the only one to go through a breakup. Im not the only one who as a crap job. There are folk out there with worse troubles than my own, and although mine are just as important to God ive got to get my attitude right, and trust that he has a perfect plan for me.
Roll on to today…. Isnt it always the way, when you come out of a meeting feeling all blessed and thankful that you know monday is going to be a bit of a shitty day. Im not going to moan on about it though, and im praying to God more than ever. Im not saying im perfect and i hope that im not coming across as some divvy christian with my head in the clouds, but this is where words become the reality and i have to start as i mean to go on. So this means no more dwelling on the past, no more thinking of the ‘what ifs" and feeling crap about the fact that my ex didnt really give a shit and that he is more bothered about who has been in his life since. Life moves on and in some ways although this year as been pretty shit, i have had some real highlights to my year. Met some great people and done some great things.
Anyway i will leave it at that.
night folks
holly xxx
September 22, 2003
Hi there, Bad news im afraid to start this entry. I got a phonecall at work this afternoon to say that dad was going to have to take mom to the doctors as she as been in pain again. She arrived at the doctors and they told her she had to go straight to hospital. She is quite scared at the moment as we all are, as she only had her gall bladder removed a couple of months ago, so we arnt sure what is happening at the moment. Ive managed to sort out my shifts, so i ve now got tomorrow off as well as wednesday and thursday which were my days off anyway. Please add my mom to your prayers please.
holly xxx
September 17, 2003
the answer is very!!!!!
I should change to a different surgery really but ive never got round to it. It started off well, as soon i arrived, he knew who i was and called me straight in. I showed him the mark on my leg and he says it is just some bruising and i just need to not stand on it so much and put cream on it. i rold him that ive been doing that, and his response was " well ive told you to do it now, so just put more on" Wow what a genius he is, and to think he went to medical school for years to give me that answer. He did actually smile at me today though, so that was a breakthrough. I then decided to ask him about some results i was waiting to hear from. You may remember at the start of the year i had to go for a scan as id had some problems over christmas. I had never heard anything about the results so i assumed everything was ok. So in passing i said, did you actually get any results back from the hospital? He looked through my notes. Aparantly i was meant to sort out an appointment to see him myself to get them at the time, but i wasnt told this. Anyway everything isnt 100% and i have got to go back to the hospital for some more tests. He is sure that things will be ok and the result of them could have just been due to the tablets i was taking at the time, which had caused the problem in the first place, but the fact he knows that i have had problems in this area for years now, you would think he would have arranged for me to go in and see him at the time. grrrrr. Again how useless can one man be?
So now i have to wait for an hospital appointment to get things sorted.
holly xxx
September 17, 2003
Just thought i would add a quick entry before i go to bed. I should actually be in bed already as i have to be up at 9am. I have a doctors appointment at 10.10am, why i chose to have one that early is anyone’s guess 
I have had this mark on the bottom of my leg now for a few months and i thought it was just where my boots and socks had left a mark as i have to stand up for 8hours at a time at work, but i havnt wore my boots for ages and it is still there, which is slightly worrying. So ive decided at long last that im going to get it checked out. It is probably nothing, but always best to get sorted. The rest of the day i have nothing planned, so today i rented out some movies from work so i will probably just watch them and spend far to long on the computer again. Ahh the exciting life that i lead. I was looking tonight at the Greenbelt pictures online and ooh what a shocker, i again realise im not the most photogenic person ha ha ha. I seem to look even more sunburnt than i thought i was at the time, and also i seem to look a little tipsy on most of them, which of course isnt true, as i only drank lemonade the whole weekend and it didnt have any Archers in it whatsoever 
Anyway im off to bed so nitey nite
holly xxx
September 16, 2003
Hoorah, i had a envelope arrive this morning with a refund slip from Greenbelt, they have paid me back the money for the extra ticket i had to buy. They had took off £2 admin fees but that is to be expected, so im really happy.
Today i also posted my application form for the job im applying for. If i get it, then it means i would be moving to a Anglican church, which will be strange to start with, but it is something i have been considering lately anyway. The closing date is on the 22nd September so only a week to wait to see if ive got a interview. The interviews are the middle of October, so ive told my present boss that i will need my days off together that week so i can travel down to where it is, if needed.
Anyway thats all for now.. It as been mentioned in the comments on here that im insane, ha ha. Ive been reading back my entries. I dont think i come across as a loon but hey, each to their own
holly xxx
September 13, 2003
Thursday i spent the day in a managers meeting, there is so much crap going on at work at the moment, but dont worry i wont bore you with the details, but it basically involves the company wanting better customer service, but they dont want to pay the hours of work that we have at the moment. ggggrrrrrr if i start on with it all then i wont stop. so u will be pleased to know i am leaving it at that.
Thursday night i went out for tea with hannah, we went to a pub round the corner from me which they have recently opened again. It was really nice and they did fantastic cheap food. She only has a couple of weeks left in the country so it was good to spend time with her, even though we both have managed to buy the same shoes recently and we were both wearing them. i was going to wear a red top with my jeans and im so glad that i didnt as hannah was also wearing a red top. Fortunatly if that had of happened she was picking me up from home so i would have gone back in the house and got changed. We didnt notice the shoe error until we had got to the pub, so couldnt be bothered to go back home as it wasnt that noticable.
This weekend i was meant to be going away, but with desperatly needing to catch up on sleep and the need to relax, plus the fact that the trains that i needed to catch had been replaced with buses, i decided to stay at home. Today i didnt get up until quite late and i have had a wonderful relaxing day. I have had a pedicur and a long hot bath. I then have filled in the application form for the job that i am applying for. I ask that you add me to your prayers please for this job as it would be a wonderful opportunity for me.
thanks
holly xxx
September 10, 2003
As i have mentioned, i am in the process of looking for a new job. I have been looking on youthwork.co.uk and there is a job im going to apply for. It meens moving away but this job seems wonderful, plus they even throw in a two bedroom flat and pay the council tax and the water rates. I dont want to build myself up to getting it and then be really disapointed, so basically i am just praying about it, and hoping that if its right for me, then i will get it. The thought of being in my present job another year is all a bit grim. My passion is working with young people and really getting involved in a community, this job allows that, it would also mean going into schools, inlcuding the local special needs school, which is the kind of work i used to do, but based in a home. Anyway i will keep you posted on how it goes.
My brother, his girlfriend, my neice and nephew were round tonight which was nice to spend time with them. Tomorrow im at a managers meeting and then im meeting up with my friend hannah for tea, a few drinks and a good old chin wag. She is off to Africa soon to teach for a year so it will be nice to catch up with what she is doing. Friday,saturday and sunday im off. Friday night i may go to the chelt meet, and then on saturday im away for the weekend at another shipmeet. The travelling is going to be a pain but im really looking forward to going and putting a few more faces to names.
Anyway im off now to watch a good old soppy movie. ‘maid in manhattan’ Its not officially out until monday. but alas one of the few perks of my current job.
holly xxx
