January 19, 2006
This has been a brilliant week so far. Ive already mentioned most of sunday but havnt mentioned sunday evening. JT has been trying to get me into the PC game Age of Empire. Id played bits of it but couldnt get used to it at all. After playing it for about 4 hours on sunday evening though im now completely hooked. For those who havnt heard of it, you start off in the dark ages and you have to build up your empire, by using the materials on hand which are gold, stone wood etc. and also to provide homes and food for the villagers and soldiers you create. once you do certain things you can progress to the next age and you also have to destroy the army which is either being played by another player or the computer. That night in bed all i dreamt about was this game. I was even trying to close the window it was on but then another would appear on the computer screen lol. I havnt played it again since but hopefully will in the next few days.
Monday JT was doing his youth work so i did my ironing and finally watched the last two episodes of LOST. well apart from the last 10 minutes. I stopped the tape as i was talking to ones of the youth groups moms and then ER was about to start which i also needed to tape.
Tuesday is mine and JTs date night. We really love these evenings as we just relax listening to music or play a board game or go out for a meal. This week we played a game that ive had for years called " lets buy hollywood". If you just read the instructions its really complicated but once we started playing it was really good and even better because i won. yeyyyyyyyyy
Wednesday i went out for tea with E and then we went to the cinema to watch Narnia. I wasnt expected to think much of it, but i absolutly loved it and im looking forward to the next one coming out.
Tonight i dont have badminton. We decided we were going to try out another leisure centre closer to work. We can get a court at 6.30 on a monday so that seems a better plan. So tonight we will do the weekly shop and then have a nice evening in (maybe even play age of empire ;-D )
Tomorrow after work a few of us are popping to the cinema and then JT will pick me about 8.30ish so we get the rest of the evening together. The weekend we are hoping to get some diy done and are hopefully going out for lunch after church to J & E’s house.
holly xxx
Not sure why ive called this entry narnia, i thought i was going to mainly talk about it, but it didnt work out like that and i cant think what else to call it 
January 19, 2006
To be spiritual for a bit ive really felt that God has been teaching me loads lately. Although i am generally quite loud i also have a shy side and can be insecure. I know this isnt a unique trate and most people feel exactly the same at some time or another. I have this tendency to care too much what people think and when i feel a bit intimidated i always think im coming across as really silly or dozy. Over the years this has really bugged me and ive felt that God has decided to bring it to ahead so it can be dealt with. Also as with anyone there have been friends over the years that have said the wrong thing or been mean. With my insecurity ive held on to this for a long time. A few years ago i brought this christian book called surviving friendly fire. I finally got round to reading it at the start of the year and it is a wonderful book. It really got me thinking and also brought to light times when i havnt been a brilliant friend also. (i wasnt naive in thinking id never done this btw).
I also realised that there are times that i havnt got involved in something or got really close to someone as im scared of getting rejected and not invited to things. So if i dont see that person very often and dont get included in something i can use my protection technique of "well i dont see them very often, so its not too bad"etc.
Ive realised that ive got to take risks and not be bothered about what other people are doing. Instead of getting jealous about how many people some friends know, i need to enjoy the friendships that i have. God really has blessed me with some wonderful friends and i need to nuture them. Make sure that i ring them and keep in touch better. I shouldnt always expect them to make the first moves. Also ive realised that all friendships have a time life to them. Some people you naturally only have in your life for a short time and others you have for a life time and its having the wisdom of which ones not to chase and which ones that need reviving.
The book i was reading was also talking alot about forgiveness and how we should forgive others before God can forgive us. Its saying you forgive so you yourself can be released from the burdon of how it makes you feel and not because the person deserves it. because to be honest as humans we can be pretty shitty and dont always deserve it.
On sunday at church the whole sermon really touched me and i struggled a bit when they said that God forgives us for what we have done and that the past is the past. They were saying that the devil can keep bringing past hurts into our minds to stop us from gaining freedom from them. I remember saying to God that there are some things i will stuggle with but still want him to forgive me. I really felt him say that he does forgive me and the things in my life i struggle with he is there to help me with and not to worry.
Now even though i experienced that, it still all sounds really wierd so i hope that its not sounding really loopy.
I really feel that ive had such a breakthough and im not saying im never going to feel hurt again or get jealous, but i know that God is really close to help me though it all.
Since that morning things just feel really good and my change of mindset has really helped how ive viewed some people and how then in turn i see how they treat me.
God really is good and its so true he meets you where you are at that point in time. which is FAB.
holly xxx
January 17, 2006
In any collection of data, the figure most obviously correct, beyond all need of checking, is the miskake. Corollary 1: No one whom you ask for help will see the mistake. Corollory 2: Everyone who stops by with unsought advice will see the mistake immediately.
holly xxx
January 16, 2006
I went for a job at work to be our boss’s PA. She mentioned it to me before christmas. The interview went well but i didnt get it. I also finally got round to booking another driving test last friday. JT as been taking me out in the car as i was having my test in it. Again for the 5th time i didnt pass. Very annoying as it was a silly mistake again that let me down. I have another one booked for the 8th Feb though so hopefully i pass that time.
Our current small group finished at christmas, so me and JT have been praying about where we are to be next. JT used to be in one a few years back and we have decided to give that one a go. The actual cluster is based in the area we live in. There are lots of married folk with young kids and some slightly older people and a few people who are single. It was a shared lunch on sunday so we popped along after church. It was really nice and we were really made to feel welcome. Its such a big church we attend so its nice to be able to know a few more people.
I have lived in Sheffield for over a year now and made some really good friends, but as we were away alot last year it has been a bit difficult getting to know people at church apart from the ones JT works with. This year we have decided to make it a priority to be at home more weekends so that we can really get involved in church life. That doesnt mean we are never going to visit people, but we are making this a priority for the time being.
We will still see our parents just the same though as we wouldnt like that to change at all.
This week is going to be another relaxing week. I was convinced we were at my parents this weekend but its the week after, so we now are going to try and get some stuff done round the house. I am also at the cinema this week and hopefully we can get back on track with badminton. We went last thursday and they hadnt started our block booking again. It should have been done last week as we only had december off. Hopefully they havnt gave it to someone else as that was the main day we have all been free to do.
holly xxx
January 6, 2006
i just did a really long post on here and decided to split it over 2 entries as it was long and grrrrr ive lost it all 
holly xxx
January 3, 2006
JANUARY!!!!!!
Id been living in Sheffield for 2 months and also been engaged for about the same time. I had just started my second agency job and life was fab. This is very bizarre writing in past tense as its sounding like im talking about how good things used to be and now there not. That isnt the case btw.
FEBRUARY!!!!!
Our second valentines together which was lovely. It was a busy month and it was also the month my dad got took into hospital which heart problems. He was ok and back home the next day which was a huge relief.
MARCH!!!!!!
This is the month we went on holiday to Spain, started our marriage prep course and i had my appendix out. Again another busy month.
APRIL!!!!!
I was off work for all of April recovering from my oporation. My parents came to visit which was great and also more wedding plans
MAY!!!!!
Last month of being single and we had our hen and stag nights.
JUNE!!!!!!!
We got MARRIED. Can you see a theme to this year yet ;-P
JULY!!!!!!!!
Not much happened. Im using my previous blog entrys to help me with info as my mind has gone blank as the year seemed to fly by.
AUGUST!!!!
Another busy month but nothing major to mention apart from i joined weightwatchers. I have lost 15lb so far which is good but not for about 5 months of trying.
SEPTEMBER!!!!!!
JT was an usher at a friends wedding and i tried to get him to buy a new suit. He had finally brought one btw in the january sales hoorah. I also started badminton at work.
OCTOBER!!!!!!
JT was best man this time at a friends wedding. i went on a friends hen night, went to the BBC comedy semi finals. Started driving lessons but stopped after a couple as the instructor was rubbish (honestly)Ma
NOVEMBER!!!!!
Max my dog went missing but was found the next day(phew) we finally got round to decorating the study and my nephew visited for a few days.
DECEMBER!!!!!
Became a firewardon at work and also had the general busyness of christmas. Mom also had some test on her heart which came out clear which we were all thrilled and relieved about. Ooh i also turned 31.
January 3, 2006
I did try and post over christmas but i kept getting distracted and now i have another long post to do.
Christmas eve we had some friends round for mince pies and mulled wine. We also had pressies for eachother so we were able to swap them. The plan was that me and JT was going to midnight mass, but we then realised we had both had a drink, so although we could have got a lift there, we would have to have walked back so we didnt go.
Christmas morning we opened up our silly stocking fillers which had presents from the pound shop in them. We then went to church and once back at home we opened the rest of our pressies and had a wonderful relaxing day together. We had even prepared all the food the day before so didnt even have loads to do with that either. JT did a fab lunch of chicken with stuffing inside and bacon on top, plus loads of veggies etc. It was so nice to totally relax, but we ended up exaused and was asleep by 10.30pm lol
Boxing day it was also just the two of us and again we managed to rest and take a really slow pace. I didnt sleep very well that night as i had swollen gums and a painful ulcer on just the inside of my lip (nice). Its all gone now though so that is good.
On the 27th we had JTs family for the day. We had a wonderful Gammon joint and we had a nice walk round Sheffields botanical gardens. They all left about 7.30 so after we tidied up we slobbed for the rest of the evening.
On the 28th my parents were arriving. We managed to misjudge the time they were arriving though so were still 5 mins away in the car when we got a phone call to ask where we were. We both felt so bad as they had made the long journey to visit. They were both good about it though and we still managed to have a fantastic time. It was great to have them visit and we even played the DVD version of who wants to be a millionaire.
My parents left on the afternoon of the 29th and we then went out for a drive and back to the sales. JT got a new suit and i managed to get a new bag and some sun glasses. They had marked them wrong so instead of just being half price off, i got my bag for £5 and my sunglasses for only £1. hoorah!!!!!
On the 30th we had some friends round for lunch which was really nice and then new years eve me and E was cooking a meal for JT and J at their house. It was a nice relaxing evening and got to bed about 1ish.
The next day JT was opening and closing church so we headed to church on new years day. We popped back to J & E’s briefly to pick up our stuff and have a drink with others and then we headed back home for the rest of the day.
Yesturday we popped to the shops briefly as i wanted a trip to hobby craft to buy some beads etc to make my own napkin rings and we also had a bit of a drive and popped out for some tea.
Its been really nice having the week off and me and JT having lots of time to relax.
Its back to work today. It feels like ive been off for ages but its been good to catch up with everyone.
holly xxx
